I just feel like a dick. So frustrating. And I am sorry about your night that sounds horrid
You just need to be 100% honest, don’t sugar coat anything. Tell her you weren’t in your right mind and that you are sorry but it is just something you can’t deal with at this time in your life. No worries, I’ll get over it I always do.
I gotta tell someone so I might as well post it on here.
Last night began as Thursday nights usually do. Everyone was deciding on going to Skully’s or staying home. As usual everyone picked Skully’s so again I was dragged out to the bar to be verbally assaulted by people I don’t know. (Which at this point I’m used to) This time Sarah was kicked out 3 minutes into being there because she got caught washing the x’s off of her hands, which was fine. We ended up going to the sex shop across the street and looking at Halloween costumes (skanky as hell. It was awesome) Anyway after that we sat in the car for about an hour talking about past relationships, broken hearts, and new relationships. (It was a good talk) We walked back to Skully’s to pick up Stephanie around 2am. While waiting out front two guys that “hate” us, for no reason, exited Skully’s with two girls. We ignored them and waited for Steph and as we were waiting one of them got the balls to point at Sarah and say,”See it in my eyes I fucking hate her.” (Luckily for him I didn’t hear what he said.) So teary eyed Sarah stormed off to the car and didn’t tell me until we got to it. So in our usual fashion we got in the car and listened to Say Anything to cheer us up. Got some Taco Bell and went to a friends house who was having a party. As we were walking in the door a guy named TJ was leaving. Luckily for us he hates Sarah for no reason as well. Sarah was explaining what happened to her friend Kristin and TJ made rude comments the whole time. We finally got past him went upstairs and hung out with some of the coolest people I’ve meet in Ohio. TJ decided to make his way back upstairs and tell Sarah that she had to leave, that with her there everyone was having a horrible time, and that she was a bitch etc.. Stephanie tried to reason with him and tell him it isn’t his house but he couldn’t understand what she was saying. So I told Stephanie to stop talking to him she is just giving him the attention he wants and he proceeded to call me a “Fat Bitch” also told me to leave and some other insults were thrown in there but I stopped listening. At that point I was over the entire night, I didn’t want to be there. Not many people know this but I have always struggled with self-esteem. Always. Until recently when I was finally on the up and could look at my self in the mirror and feel okay about how I looked. Yesterday was one of those days, I felt pretty decent about how I looked and then he had to throw down the “Fat Bitch” comment. Just because I’m not 30 pounds underweight, like the girls you surround yourself with, doesn’t give you the right to call me that. Did I mention I have never met that person before in my life? Anyway, I had an awful night and everyone else just seemed to act like everything was honky dory. I don’t get it.
This is a shout out to the douche bag in Bolz Hall on the third floor on the only bench. No one wants to sit next to you because you are blaring country. On top of that classes are taking place in the room next to you so you are causing a distraction. Wear some fucking headphones and stop being a prick. The annoying twang of the “music” you are listening to needs to stop. I mean like right now.